Dark Cloud

I'm trapped within the maze of life,
I don't remember exactly how or when I got here,
But I have wandered and searched everywhere,
Finding a way out of this maze,
Every second in the maze was like minutes,
And every minute in the maze was like hours,
But I can't seem to find my way out,
And every step changes the course of this maze,
Will this never ending change cease?
Is this the end of the road, for me?

I'm starting to feel the cold breeze,
I'm feeling the trickles of rain,
The shivers it sends down my spines,
I know that I don't have much time,
And I know that must make a choice,
Between comfort or happiness.

The dark cloud watches, looks down upon me,
With a grin on his face, waiting for the chance that I might fall,
Falling down into oblivion, consumed by fear,hatred and loneliness,
Waiting for the moment, when I call for him,
To ensure that I lose myself forever and he,
Becomes the new host for the empty shell.

Times running out, and I know,
That I'm not strong enough,that I cannot do this alone,
I need my light, my other half,
I have to find it before I falter and turn into ash,
Before it consumes me, before I fade and lose myself,
I will need the strength, courage and confidence,
To stand, fight and hold as long as I can,
Until I find 'it' I will not give up.

Underestimated

Have you ever, thought,every time you wake up,
That when you walk towards your class, anxiously waiting to see your friends,
Only just to be, a sideshow in the within the circle,
Have you ever felt, like you try too hard,
To get them to notice you, to get to know them better,

But one things for sure, that they're not interested in you,
Your life,
As you're not the main cast of the show, you are merely a background,


And I have too say, that I am trying my very best,
I tried to be there for you, tried to cheer you up,
But you always think that I'm not worth your time,
I always asked myself, asked myself what was wrong with me,
What can I do, just to be seen and heard, to be accepted
For once I want them just to believe in me,
As I know that I am being underestimated.

Have you ever felt, that no matter what you do,
No one never seem to care, nor bother to or talk to me,
They think that I'm not smart as them,I am too dumb too understand
Well guess what, its not just books thats part of my life,

Everything, every conversation,topic, nothings seems to have excluded books,
To me, life is not just about books, it is way than that.

And I have to say, if thats the way you see me,
Then I don't really want to waste my time,
I guess its time to think about myself,
I don't want to give a damn about you,
If thats what makes you happy,
Fine by me, I'll go my own way,
I'll live my life and take a breath,
My absence and my presence seems the same to you,
I've been underestimated, and I will show you all,
That I can live without you.

To me, music is my soul, it moves me in more ways than one and it was always there to soothe and calm me when I am down. Those who told me that taking music as a subject was a waste to time and money should get lost. What do they understand about music? Music is my life, as are books/art/computer/etc is life to you.


(P.S to all, whenever someone tells you that your dreams are just a waste of time and effort, just think about it, are you just going to sit there and agree that your dream/life ambition is worth giving up over just because someone said so? Well, no, not everyone gets their dream fulfilled just being given on a silver platter, some of us work to our very bones to pursue our dreams. We have to work hard and show them that they are wrong to underestimate our capabilities. But also, don't for forget to respect your friends who does not share your dreams, or you will change, from victim to one of them,the underestimator) :)

Sorrowful and Drenched Furor

I feel like my heart, is racing with anger
The cool composure of my mind is gone,
Why do I feel, dazed and sad
The surge within me,
I feel like just breaking out.

But why do I feel the sorrow and pain
I shouldn't be having this feeling
But I cant help myself
What should I do to end, the fog.

The storm is arriving and the rain has fallen
Each raindrop feels safe and happy.
Drenched in the rain
But I feel that deep down my heart,
Feel the pain and my worries have been rendered asunder.

So please... my soothing,cold,wet rain
Please just wash all the pain away,
And just take to the rainbow when you leave

Let the light, shine on me
Let the colours of the rainbow
Let them guide me to the end.

Life's Newest Revolution

It feels like an eternity since I have broke away
From my own shell
Where I was trapped in eternal, and endless cycle of a lunar eclipse

Since then, everything had changed
The sky looks so different from before,
It is calm,soothing, filled with a tiny shred of hope
Together with the warmth from the sun
I feel like I am home.

Though the seasons and weather has changed
Everything around me still feels the same..
But why then, do I feel
Deep within me, something has changed.
Though I carry past experiences with me,
I feel, braver, daring, much more stronger than before.

Deep inside me, I gained more courage,
To stand up for myself and fight for what I truly believed in.
I gained the strength,
To tell some of my 'friends' face to face,
That I am no longer afraid of them,
Their influence no longer hold, and bind me for life,
To mold me into their own clay

Now, the only strings controlling my future, is set by the choices that i make
No way I am going to sit in front of 'friends',ignored
And just smile like a fool, a fool for feeling alone and trapped.

I have move beyond that phase, and now,I shall say this kindly,
''I don't mean to be rude, but I feel neglected''

And if that doesn't work, then I will say
''If that is the case, then I don't need you in my life anymore, have a nice day, goodbye'' :)
Because in the end, the only thing that they have lost is a true friend.
And the only thing you have lost, is a puppeteer.

Life's Revolution

Long time ago, every step that I take leads to pain
Every time I would drown in the sea of despair
Let the tide flow, let the currents just take me away

Far from the place where I had given my life, my soul
But I was cast aside by you
The loneliness and pain to my heart


I wished and wish all the pain will leave
Its memories are carved into me
The hatred and darkness were born into me
It grew and grew and consumed me

All my life I wish the darkness would leave
Just go,fade away, never come back to haunt me
But I have come to understand,
The darkness is a part of me

So now, the battle has just begun
Battle to seize control of myself
Though I had won for now, it won't end
But this time I know that I can use 'it'
And be my strength

Look Around you

For all this time, I could see it in your eyes
The cherished moments, they are bound to be just memories
I see the love, I see the joy, pain, even sorrow
I feel it all, from others
Would it make me feel better

You have to know, that this is how life is
But you are not alone anymore
You may not know of us but we exist,
So light a fire within your soul

You think you walk alone and nobody understands you
You think that they are all the same
But you are wrong and I should know
Cos I'm just like you,
There are other like you,
So don't give up, just take a breath
Just look at things around you
You may just find something new,better.

Moving on

Would it make it better
Would I just feel safe
The colours of the rainbow
I wonder where it ends

Will it make this easier
Will it make you smile
I just wish my destiny
The love I never had

You know,you tried
They were the past
You were the one
You were the future
You were the sky
When I just look above
Crimson horizon

Have I fallen so far
Have I seen it all again
The corner's of my eyes
I see everything that I shouldn't know
It hurt for a while
It feels just like old times
But its okay

Walking down the street
On a rainy day
The chill running down my spine
It felt so good
The touch of raindrops
It gives me strength to get up and try
Though I will fall, I will rise see and through the end

Everything feels the same
The loneliness the shadow of my past
Never will I escape
Impending of the darkest hour

I have to accept my fate and go along with my own path
I'll carry the darkness and I will survive

In the end I'll have to dig in deeper
And search myself
Find the love, the strength to carry on
For now I'll have to hold on until that one love saves me.

Hi

Hi, i hope you guys will all listen to my new playist. I put all the best songs there is from my fav. artist Adam Lambert. For those who wants to listen to sentimental acoustics, i had 3 sumwhere in my playist. So, feel free to try them out.

:D

5th song: Entity of Dark Cloud

There goes the brilliant sunshine
Here comes the dark and black sky
The full moon rising and it
Takes its throne the nightfall

There it sits and smiles at one who knows of it
Down below, the one gazes upon the sky

He feels the same as the moon
He feels the moon is his guide
The light that comes from it just
Seeps through the deperation

Each night, he sits alone and pray
He wished that someone could just save him
But he knows he'll never find the one who'll
Save him from this wretched curse and free him

He, looks up and just gives a faint smile,
Knows he can't escape his fate
He knows that its part of him
Wishing for the past to change
Wishing time could change for him.

Hi!

I'm currently working on another song right now... Its 50% completed.. It should be ready and posted soon enough... Stay tuned! :D
Right after that, I would be working on another poem/poems. i'll let you know the theme of the poem/poems soon as well.. :D

Imagine love

My wish, my dream,
I dreamed that you were here,
Just by my side, telling me you love me,
our hand entwined, it makes me feel so happy

But I know, it's just a vision,
The dreams are just illusions of my fantasy

And it's just love love love,
I can't imagine,can't believe it,
You are everything,
You are my air,you are my little sunshine,
So, please don't go,just stay with me,
imagine love.

I only see you, in a small place called home,
I watched you laugh, I watch you cry,
But i can't do anything,
It will never be, just you and me together

I can't seem to say goodbye,
And if i do I'll never know the truth

And it's just love love love,
I can't imagine,can't believe it,
You are everything,
You are my air,you are my little sunshine,
So, please don't go,just stay with me,
imagine love.

I wish i knew what you were thinking,
So that will leave my mind in peace

Its just love,love love
I can't believe it, i can't imagine
Every night I wish, that it was real and you were by my side,
So please give me signs, that gives me hope

My apologies

I am terribly sorry that i have not been updating my blog as i had promised.. My blog will be up and running again... Don't worry, I will be posting my new compositions soon... I will revamp my blog again and add two songs played by me into my blog soon enough.. Im sure you're all familiar with one of them but the other is my 4th official piano composition entitled 'The Turning point'. Hope you like it. :D

I will be posting the whole lyrics/interpretation for imagine love soon enough.. Stayed tuned!! :D

Imagine Love- inspired by LCH again

Hi,this is just the chorus of the song, the start and the bridge is still underway,hope enjoy this love song i've made from the bottom of my heart.I'll put up the song soon in this blog..Stay tuned.. :D

And it's just love love love,
I can't imagine,can't believe it,
You are everything,
You are my air,you are my little sunshine,
So, please don't go,just stay with me,
imagine love.

Lifestream-The Song

Staring at lights, looking for something,
Eternal glory,which takes me away,
Looking for summer,the heat and the wind,
Takes me forward one step at a time,
And everything,just makes me feel,the warmness and beauty of

Wonders and wishes i see, staring at me, the eternity,
And the story and journey i 've been, sweeps me away,
The joy and the wonder.

Every time, everyday, take a breath and follow your own hearts desire,
Every wave,every tide,just sit back and go with the flow of life.

Standing on nowhere,an uncharted land,
The feelings so strange yet i feel like i'm home,
A new place to see, a new way of life,
Its time let go and live on,

Wonders and wishes i see, staring at me, the eternity,
And the story and journey i 've been, sweeps me away,
The joy and the wonder.

Every time, everyday, take a breath and follow your own hearts desire,
Every wave,every tide,just sit back and go with the flow of life.

Joy and the sorrow, the life that i've lived, giving me things to
Just see and explore,
The prime of my life, the feelings so strange cause now i feel this new place is my home

My confidence

Walking down the streets,

You hear them say,

Things you don't want to hear,

Curiousity overpowers your senses,

As they are all about you,

Things you wished were wrong,

As every movement, every step you take,

All of these being thrown back at your face.

Can't you see you're hurting me?

Don't you know me at all?

How can I be judged when they don't even know me, my past,my present.

After all the foolish ponderings on how i should change the way I am,

I thought, ''Who are they to judge me? If they don't like something about me, then its their problem. I am not gonna change anything anymore''

How many times do i have to change just to please them?become a perfect replica,view of them?

None, that is, if they ever point out what they don't like about me, I would say this time, with full confidence and pride, ''This is who i am, a perfect human being who has his own flaws just like everyone else , if you don't like what you see about me, then it is your problem. Just accept that this is me and move on.

Petals of spring(4th composition)

Its funny how I wake and just see you lying here,
It feels so real that I am really glad,
The shinning rays of sunlight gives the feel of your warmth,
The gentle feel just tingles me

(chorus)
Ohh, you really bring the best of me,
The petals of spring just makes my day so bright,
The very moment i take my greatest step,
Is to where you and I can be.

The wonders and the joy that you have brought out in me,
I cherish those moments in me,
The warmth of your smile isn't just an everyday thing,
I gives me the strength to move on

You, the wind of shelter and my safety,
You are that one thing that make me feel alive,
The joy you bring to me are just like petals of spring,
Beauty and tenderness

You that one thing that's special to me,
So, please don't go,
Cause you are a dream that i can't never wish for more,
My petals of spring.

Lifestream-3rd composition

The gentle flow, the gentle stream
A new beginning, a new journey,
As a life is taken away, new ones will be created,
Following the stream of life

Everyday is a new beginning, new choices,new paths to take,
Every choice brings a change in the stream of life,
Every change gives a new and different future.

Some say it governs our life, others say we govern our lives,
While some say it is fate the make us who we are,
Others would say it is us who make us who we are

The soothing flow of the lifestream,
The calm and gentle waves,
Where all lives gather and move in harmony,
Where the order of life and death takes place

Some choose to accept their fate,
Some choose to free themselves,
The binding absolute law of nature

As long as the lifestream is not disturbed,
As long as the balance of all life is maintained,
Then can the stream of life flow gently and peacefully

Voice(Koe)

This is my transcription for the song 'Koe' for Fatal Frame 3.Its a very meaningful song...Enjoy:D
Forgive me if its sucks.

Your sound your voice, its calling out to me,
Its telling me that that you're leaving me drowning,
Into the sea,pulling me from your voice,
I can't bear to lose the sound of hope.

The 'you' that i have ever treasured, the memories of you and me
The darkness sought to claim your soul, the only thing they couldn't take,
The memories of you, the link between our souls, the final piece of you

But I'm drowning in fear, I'm losing your voice,
I am sinking deep down under the sea of time,
I am starting to lose, the pieces of you,
They're fading, and fading and breaking the chains of my heart.

I'm trapped inside, a pool of emptiness,
I tried and tried, but i just seem to lose it,
Your voice and 'you' are beginning to fade,
Back where all hopes and dreams are lost

I can't just stand and watch you leave me,
Leave me drowning in myself,
I can't believe that 'you' have left me,
I thought that i have lost you once,
But I know that i'm wrong, and it's happening again, I'm losing you again

Disappear, disappear, I'm losing your voice,
To the place where all souls and all hopes reunite,
And the chains in my heart, their tearing apart,
It's rusting and breaking, the last bond with you and with me

And I'm drowning in fear, I'm losing your voice,
All the pieces of you with me are losing out,
Disappear, disappear to where all is found,
I'm losing the sound of your voice and the pieces of you

Why all this have to end,
The sound of your voice fading,
The very sound that tells me that you're living and just breathing,
It's getting weaker and faint,
Its getting softer, lighter,
I know you're telling me it's time to let the chains all come lose,
Your voice is fading from me,
The link between you and me,
The final piece of you~
Time's running out for me,
The final wave is coming,
But I just can't accept it,
And if I do I'll lose you, to the sea of hopes and dreams.

Finally I'm free

So sry, its been a while since I have written any new post. Been busy with my finals as I am planning to fulfill my goal to become a researcher in biomed or perhaps a doctor. :D

Its been a hell of a week but i managed to pull it through. Overall I thought the exams were pretty much alright. Hope I do well... Hav to keep my fingers crossed. :D

Right, back to work then.... Now that i hav a lot of time to compose sum new stuff..

18 in 2 hours

Lol,seems there is only two more hours till i'm 18. Then I can finally do whatever i wan,clubbing,drinking,driving,(fill in the blank). Nah, looks like i hav to become more mature now and start acting as an adult now. It feels strange though, i hav been 17 for 364 days now. today is the last day i'm 17. After that, its goodbye 17 and hello 18.:D

Hmm,i hav to start being more hardworking and do my best for finals. :D