My first ever composition based on the transcription of Tsukiko Amano's song:Crimson Butterfly.

*the song is the same, its just the lyrics are in English now, my own work. :D


Deep down the underground,I kept on digging through the dark soil,
To find a tunnel, that leads me to the right way out,
Deep down that underground, I'm stranded in the darkest passageway,
The cold and clamminess, I have to find my way

I should never had, I gave you all my trust,my heart, my soul,
Don't you know how I feel for you,my butterfly,
So go, I'll spread my tattered wings

Cause it's burning,
And it's scorching,
The scar on my heart that will not ever even heal,
And the pain I felt from this cursed wound,
It keeps on getting stronger and stronger till I die,
Ripping through the gap, in the red cloud,
You were my crimson butterfly.

Deep down the emptiness, I felt like I was back in my cocoon,
Waiting to spread my wings, and flutter from the emptiness,
I never felt so weak, as all my hope has left me for good,
I have to end this, and break this dark spell

I will have to free, myself from the cocoon,the night fall,
And when I do I'll look above and gaze the sky,
And see the beautiful moonlight

Cause I'm burning out,
I'm burning out,
I feel like a candle that is blazing out itself,
And my solid wax,starts to change its form,
My life is ticking every second,every breath I take,
When the time comes,I will turn to ash,
Goodbye my crimson butterfly

No more, the pain, I want it all to end,
I feel like just screaming, I'll scream all I want,
And throw my rage away, away from me,
While I can still call myself me,
I have to get up, and fight to free myself,

The darkness is coming,my time's running out,
I have to free myself,breaking free from my cocoon

Cause it's burning,
And its scorching,
The scar on my heart that will not ever even heal,
And the pain I felt from this cursed wound,
It keeps on getting stronger and stronger till I die

And I'm burning out,
I'm burning out,
I feel like a candle that is blazing out itself,
Then I'll know that I have broken free,
Cause I am that red butterfly.

Just a song i thought up two days ago, created the lyrics yesterday.I'm still not sure whatshould i name this song.

All around me, I see changes everywhere,
But i don't know how, I don't know why,
There's nothing I can do to hold them back,
Even though, I try and try so hard,
But I know there's one thing I've to realize

*Chorus

Everything changed,
Everything's different,
Never thought I'd see it coming,
Standing in rivers,
Holding back the flow,
Never thought that this will be so hard,
I'll have to take one step to move on,
And go with the change of my life.

Holidays Finally!!

I am having doubts whether I would actually pass this exam. This morning,I was waiting outside the room for a long time for the examiner to let me in. I was like'' what is he doing?Dun tell me he's forgotten about me.'' Luckily, he remembered and opened the door. I was rushed to the seat and was asked to squirt some hand sanitizer on my hands. Then, the moment I had finished scrubbing the liquid around my fingers, he told me to begin..''What? So fast? I haven even touched the piano yet.Why does the keys look narrower than usual?''

When I asked him whether i could feel the piano, he said go ahead, but deep down, it sounded to me like ''Hurry up,you're wasting my time''..lol. So i only tried the piano for only ten seconds. Then while i played my scales, i was nervous as my fingers were frozen stiff and the piano keys were narrower than my piano's. So i ended up occasionally playing the wrong notes and slipping . When reached to one of the sections,my mind became blank and after playing different keys for that particular section, he said '' I keep asking you to play dominant sevens but you keep playing diminished sevens. Do you know what are dominant sevens?'' In my mind i was thinking'' Oh S***! i'm so screwed!'' But in the end, i managed to get it write, finally.

After scales he immediately asked me to start my pieces. Before i started, i looked up at him and saw the word''FAIL'' on his face. Thankfully, i managed to play all the pieces till the end. Bad news was, I screwed up the major sections for my first and second pieces. Then he asked me to sight read sum piece for only 30 seconds.. Before i could even think of how should i play it, he asked me to begin the song. It was seriously the pits... I couldn't think of the rhythm while playing. Later, i had my aural test. Sight singing was the worse for me. The beats he gave me were so fast i could barely recall the tune for the keys i was supposed to be singing. And the best part was, i was still singing even after he had finished playing the song and he was staring at me like he was going to laugh.. I too laughed, not because of my singing, but at the thought of failing. Then for the final aural part, he played a song while i was supposed to interpret it. He played so fast that i was stunned as i didnt not know how to interpret a 10 second song at such speed!!.. (actually it was also because i was busy admiring his finger work, it was really fast and smooth until i realised that i was supposed to interpret it) Then he asked me, ''Describe the harmony for this piece''.. I stared at him blankly.''What IS a harmony?'' ''I had never practiced this with my teacher before..'' Then he said'' Ok, in music there's a melody and a harmony'' (Still blank).. Then he played an example for me.. (Jaw dropped still staring idly).. I simply mentioned about the repetition and the modulations of the notes... Then he asked me the period and possible composer..''What!? you played so fast you expect me to know what period is this?'' I was about to say''I think'', but luckily i stopped myself in time.. I wasn't supposed to say that..So I ended up saying' 20th century, Bartok''

After that he said goodbye and have a nice day.. Translation,'' I hope you enjoy your day later today.. I am sorry I have to be the one to break the news that u played and answered poorly today and now i need the time to decide whether i should fail or pass you'' SWt... :(

After that. my parents drove me to college and i immediately registered for my universities. It was truly a horrifying experience for me.. I swear i would practice even harder than ever..

Week of exhaustion

Its been a very exhausting week for me. Everyday is just a simple routine. Wake, get dressed, attend college, come home, bath, sleep, wake up again, have dinner, practice piano. It may sound boring, but its the way i am accustomed to. Simple and content life, free from over-arousals and stress. I have been practicing for hours at the piano to prepare for my practical exam, which is tomorrow, 14th of August. I feel very tired... Tired of simple errors i make, mistakes after mistakes. Its really difficult to get the songs as how I want them to be, no matter how hard i practice. I have to get them perfect if I wish to pass my exam. This is the only chance i would ever get. If i fail, there won't be a next time... Its like my future in music depends on the exam. I will do my best for tomorrow and just hope that everything goes well...

The charity drive which was held yesterday was a success.. My class managed to obtain a profit of 850 dollars by selling statement T-shirts. I wanted to do the best i could for my class. I was shouting out loud to promote my class shirts. It was a really hot day that day, luckily Lenna made me take a break when i was running around under the hot sun try to promote the shirts for at least 2 hours as I had a headache after that. After the event, when i heard Aaron complaining about the money, which was supposed to be handed in to our respective mentor, I decided to take the responsibility and went to the orange room to see him.. Thankfully, he said we did not need to hand in the money so soon. He let us out early as he knew we were all very tired on that day.. Overall, it was an enjoyable day, but a very exhausting one, i truly enjoyed myself on that day. :D

Three Roads of Destiny

Everything seems to fall out of place,
I had overlooked many things, I had miscalculated the course of future,
But no matter, I shall embrace the unknown,
The darkness that awaits the humans in every path chosen.

There, u will find the truth behind the lies, the lies behind the truth,
To find is to lose, and to lose is to find,
Sacrifices must be made when a path is chosen.

Let experience and lessons guide to to the everlasting light,the gate of destiny,
For me, I have yet to linger between the realms of darkness and light,
Twilight I call it, Neither here nor there,
I embrace the darkness, yet I yearn for light.

But know this my child, even in the brightest light, there is always darkness the lurks within it,
But also know that in the deepest depth of darkness,
know that you'll find a spark of light waiting to be called.

Accept that they are your teachers, masters, guides to the gates of destiny,
Let yourself not be consumed by eternal light, nor eternal darkness,
Even if you do succumb to these either of these masters,
Look for the other, he's always there waiting to be called,
Ready to face its opposite twin.

Dear child, know that you will need them both in order to face:
Gaia, Chaos, Nynx, Tartarus, and lastly, Chronos.

This is the path of twilight. The choice is yours my dear child,
Should u wish to chose the sun or a black hole,
Or as I had; the twilight road to dawn.

Interesting day

Yesterday I went to 1U with my mum for lunch as well as to shop for some stuff..We had lunch as Delicious...I ordered seafood pasta while my mum ordered beef bacon pasta.. The food tasted as good as the name of the restaurant.. lol.. My mum actually went there to shop for some clothes, but I ended up shopping for clothes instead..lol..

Today on the other hand was fine... I'm very pleased with my bio marks... It was much better than I had expected... Physics was kinda dull as i did not bring my previous notes to school...Thus, I was unable to complete my essay.. Maths was quite challenging today... Matrix is a pretty tough chapter... Had to think a lot before I could answer... Chemistry was pretty hilarious today..Although I didnt even finish my homework, but i pretended i did by covering the top of my paper with my previous sheets.. :D

I was bushed when I came back from college... But i couldn't take a nap as I had Music class later in the afternoon.. Surprisingly, I managed to complete all my three songs...At least she wasn't that mad at me.... Then later, I took a nap and woke up for dinner..

After that, I went to my piano and stated working on my third composition entitled 'Petals of Spring'... Its almost complete... Needs a bit of touch up, but it would be finished by next week.. :D If i was given a chance.. I would most probably have chosen music as my career..but, being a scientist is not too bad either. My first two compositions are entitled 'The loose thread' and 'Enrikay'. :D