Petals of spring(4th composition)

Its funny how I wake and just see you lying here,
It feels so real that I am really glad,
The shinning rays of sunlight gives the feel of your warmth,
The gentle feel just tingles me

(chorus)
Ohh, you really bring the best of me,
The petals of spring just makes my day so bright,
The very moment i take my greatest step,
Is to where you and I can be.

The wonders and the joy that you have brought out in me,
I cherish those moments in me,
The warmth of your smile isn't just an everyday thing,
I gives me the strength to move on

You, the wind of shelter and my safety,
You are that one thing that make me feel alive,
The joy you bring to me are just like petals of spring,
Beauty and tenderness

You that one thing that's special to me,
So, please don't go,
Cause you are a dream that i can't never wish for more,
My petals of spring.

Lifestream-3rd composition

The gentle flow, the gentle stream
A new beginning, a new journey,
As a life is taken away, new ones will be created,
Following the stream of life

Everyday is a new beginning, new choices,new paths to take,
Every choice brings a change in the stream of life,
Every change gives a new and different future.

Some say it governs our life, others say we govern our lives,
While some say it is fate the make us who we are,
Others would say it is us who make us who we are

The soothing flow of the lifestream,
The calm and gentle waves,
Where all lives gather and move in harmony,
Where the order of life and death takes place

Some choose to accept their fate,
Some choose to free themselves,
The binding absolute law of nature

As long as the lifestream is not disturbed,
As long as the balance of all life is maintained,
Then can the stream of life flow gently and peacefully

Voice(Koe)

This is my transcription for the song 'Koe' for Fatal Frame 3.Its a very meaningful song...Enjoy:D
Forgive me if its sucks.

Your sound your voice, its calling out to me,
Its telling me that that you're leaving me drowning,
Into the sea,pulling me from your voice,
I can't bear to lose the sound of hope.

The 'you' that i have ever treasured, the memories of you and me
The darkness sought to claim your soul, the only thing they couldn't take,
The memories of you, the link between our souls, the final piece of you

But I'm drowning in fear, I'm losing your voice,
I am sinking deep down under the sea of time,
I am starting to lose, the pieces of you,
They're fading, and fading and breaking the chains of my heart.

I'm trapped inside, a pool of emptiness,
I tried and tried, but i just seem to lose it,
Your voice and 'you' are beginning to fade,
Back where all hopes and dreams are lost

I can't just stand and watch you leave me,
Leave me drowning in myself,
I can't believe that 'you' have left me,
I thought that i have lost you once,
But I know that i'm wrong, and it's happening again, I'm losing you again

Disappear, disappear, I'm losing your voice,
To the place where all souls and all hopes reunite,
And the chains in my heart, their tearing apart,
It's rusting and breaking, the last bond with you and with me

And I'm drowning in fear, I'm losing your voice,
All the pieces of you with me are losing out,
Disappear, disappear to where all is found,
I'm losing the sound of your voice and the pieces of you

Why all this have to end,
The sound of your voice fading,
The very sound that tells me that you're living and just breathing,
It's getting weaker and faint,
Its getting softer, lighter,
I know you're telling me it's time to let the chains all come lose,
Your voice is fading from me,
The link between you and me,
The final piece of you~
Time's running out for me,
The final wave is coming,
But I just can't accept it,
And if I do I'll lose you, to the sea of hopes and dreams.

Finally I'm free

So sry, its been a while since I have written any new post. Been busy with my finals as I am planning to fulfill my goal to become a researcher in biomed or perhaps a doctor. :D

Its been a hell of a week but i managed to pull it through. Overall I thought the exams were pretty much alright. Hope I do well... Hav to keep my fingers crossed. :D

Right, back to work then.... Now that i hav a lot of time to compose sum new stuff..

18 in 2 hours

Lol,seems there is only two more hours till i'm 18. Then I can finally do whatever i wan,clubbing,drinking,driving,(fill in the blank). Nah, looks like i hav to become more mature now and start acting as an adult now. It feels strange though, i hav been 17 for 364 days now. today is the last day i'm 17. After that, its goodbye 17 and hello 18.:D

Hmm,i hav to start being more hardworking and do my best for finals. :D

Be myself(make up your own song wif the lyrics)

Hiding in shadows, trying to find myself
I don't know what to do,
Stand in a forest and look around,
I'm lost in the deep dark cold woods

But I just can't stand there, I have to keep moving
To keep up with my life,
I and try and try to create myself to be there for everyone,
But they don't seem to care,
And now, I'm starting to understand there's nothing better than being just me.

This is my life, my story,
Who are you to tell me what I should be,
So, take off, and leave me alone,
This is my story,no one tells me who I am,
Just be myself

They tell me I'm not good enough,
Even though I did all I can to keep them pleased,
When I'm not around they start to pick on me,
What have I done to have this all coming to me,

So now in the end, I'll show them who I am,
Why should I care what they say,

This is my life, my story,
Who are you to tell me what I should be,
So, take off, and leave me alone,
This is my story,no one tells me who I am,
Just be myself

That's all I have to be,
It's just in front of me,
It was always there,I didn't know
I was blind,

This is my story, this is my life,
No one tells me what to do,
If they don't like me, it's their problem,
This is who I am, what I should be,
They can't tell me how I should me,
I'm just being me.

(Those of you who have read this, pls remember, don't go looking for yourself.Its never lost, its always right in front of you, hidden beneath the lies and fake personas' you have developed. Believe me, the only thing you should be is yourself no no others.Only then can you find true happiness, just as I found mine :D)

Changes(Final version)-Inspired by LCH

All around me, I see changes everywhere,
But I don't know how, I don't know why,
There's nothing I can do to hold them back,

Even though,I try and try so hard,
But I know, there's one thing I have realized

(Chorus)
That everything changed, everything's different
Never thought I'd see it coming
Standing in rivers, holding the flow,
Never thought that this will be so hard,
But I know I have to move on, and go with the changes of my life.

The season changes, just like summer and winter
As leaves comes in autumn and goes in the fall,
There's nothing we can do to hold them back,

But I know,there's one thing we can do,
Just stand up, keep the rhythm going

Cause everything changed, everything's different
Never thought I'd see it coming
Standing in rivers, holding the flow,
Never thought that this will be so hard,
But I know I have to move on, and go with the changes of my life.

There are thing we have to know, there are things we have to try
There are things we have to do, to move on,
I know its hard to keep on moving, but if we don't then we can't break,
Break free and spread our wings.

Cause everything changed, everything's different
Never thought we'd see it coming
But together we stand,holding the flow
Together we can put an end to this
Lets put an end to all our sorrows and walk down the road that leads to dawn.

Life

I always thought I walked the right path
Very sure of the course which I was destined to have
Full of hopes and dreams of how my life would be
However, these are just the thoughts of a shallow mind,
One who perceived and claimed that he knows enough about life and has seen enough.
I was wrong.

Months ago, I realized that deep beneath all the happiness and friendship,
Left a lie, an illusion which blinds even the wisest. Many have succumb to the illusions,
The past has has proven to be only but pain,
Ran away I have from this pain, the fear of the pain I have developed with time,
Wanting to change everything about myself, to become a better person.
But, soon I realize, how can one be a better person when one does not acknowledge his true form?

After months of painstaking effort, soon I realize, perhaps its time that I should stop running, and face the darkness I have been running from,
In order to seek the truth beneath the lies,
Now, I how found my answer, I will not lose myself to the past,
I will use my past as the ultimate weapon of hope and use if to face the present,
Running will get me nowhere, its time I faced my past and put an end to the lies I have been telling myself.
Now is the time to turn around, and become stronger than ever, to be able to pass down my knowledge to even the young ones
Now I know the most important things in my life, and I plan to live my life with them.

My first ever composition based on the transcription of Tsukiko Amano's song:Crimson Butterfly.

*the song is the same, its just the lyrics are in English now, my own work. :D


Deep down the underground,I kept on digging through the dark soil,
To find a tunnel, that leads me to the right way out,
Deep down that underground, I'm stranded in the darkest passageway,
The cold and clamminess, I have to find my way

I should never had, I gave you all my trust,my heart, my soul,
Don't you know how I feel for you,my butterfly,
So go, I'll spread my tattered wings

Cause it's burning,
And it's scorching,
The scar on my heart that will not ever even heal,
And the pain I felt from this cursed wound,
It keeps on getting stronger and stronger till I die,
Ripping through the gap, in the red cloud,
You were my crimson butterfly.

Deep down the emptiness, I felt like I was back in my cocoon,
Waiting to spread my wings, and flutter from the emptiness,
I never felt so weak, as all my hope has left me for good,
I have to end this, and break this dark spell

I will have to free, myself from the cocoon,the night fall,
And when I do I'll look above and gaze the sky,
And see the beautiful moonlight

Cause I'm burning out,
I'm burning out,
I feel like a candle that is blazing out itself,
And my solid wax,starts to change its form,
My life is ticking every second,every breath I take,
When the time comes,I will turn to ash,
Goodbye my crimson butterfly

No more, the pain, I want it all to end,
I feel like just screaming, I'll scream all I want,
And throw my rage away, away from me,
While I can still call myself me,
I have to get up, and fight to free myself,

The darkness is coming,my time's running out,
I have to free myself,breaking free from my cocoon

Cause it's burning,
And its scorching,
The scar on my heart that will not ever even heal,
And the pain I felt from this cursed wound,
It keeps on getting stronger and stronger till I die

And I'm burning out,
I'm burning out,
I feel like a candle that is blazing out itself,
Then I'll know that I have broken free,
Cause I am that red butterfly.

Just a song i thought up two days ago, created the lyrics yesterday.I'm still not sure whatshould i name this song.

All around me, I see changes everywhere,
But i don't know how, I don't know why,
There's nothing I can do to hold them back,
Even though, I try and try so hard,
But I know there's one thing I've to realize

*Chorus

Everything changed,
Everything's different,
Never thought I'd see it coming,
Standing in rivers,
Holding back the flow,
Never thought that this will be so hard,
I'll have to take one step to move on,
And go with the change of my life.

Holidays Finally!!

I am having doubts whether I would actually pass this exam. This morning,I was waiting outside the room for a long time for the examiner to let me in. I was like'' what is he doing?Dun tell me he's forgotten about me.'' Luckily, he remembered and opened the door. I was rushed to the seat and was asked to squirt some hand sanitizer on my hands. Then, the moment I had finished scrubbing the liquid around my fingers, he told me to begin..''What? So fast? I haven even touched the piano yet.Why does the keys look narrower than usual?''

When I asked him whether i could feel the piano, he said go ahead, but deep down, it sounded to me like ''Hurry up,you're wasting my time''..lol. So i only tried the piano for only ten seconds. Then while i played my scales, i was nervous as my fingers were frozen stiff and the piano keys were narrower than my piano's. So i ended up occasionally playing the wrong notes and slipping . When reached to one of the sections,my mind became blank and after playing different keys for that particular section, he said '' I keep asking you to play dominant sevens but you keep playing diminished sevens. Do you know what are dominant sevens?'' In my mind i was thinking'' Oh S***! i'm so screwed!'' But in the end, i managed to get it write, finally.

After scales he immediately asked me to start my pieces. Before i started, i looked up at him and saw the word''FAIL'' on his face. Thankfully, i managed to play all the pieces till the end. Bad news was, I screwed up the major sections for my first and second pieces. Then he asked me to sight read sum piece for only 30 seconds.. Before i could even think of how should i play it, he asked me to begin the song. It was seriously the pits... I couldn't think of the rhythm while playing. Later, i had my aural test. Sight singing was the worse for me. The beats he gave me were so fast i could barely recall the tune for the keys i was supposed to be singing. And the best part was, i was still singing even after he had finished playing the song and he was staring at me like he was going to laugh.. I too laughed, not because of my singing, but at the thought of failing. Then for the final aural part, he played a song while i was supposed to interpret it. He played so fast that i was stunned as i didnt not know how to interpret a 10 second song at such speed!!.. (actually it was also because i was busy admiring his finger work, it was really fast and smooth until i realised that i was supposed to interpret it) Then he asked me, ''Describe the harmony for this piece''.. I stared at him blankly.''What IS a harmony?'' ''I had never practiced this with my teacher before..'' Then he said'' Ok, in music there's a melody and a harmony'' (Still blank).. Then he played an example for me.. (Jaw dropped still staring idly).. I simply mentioned about the repetition and the modulations of the notes... Then he asked me the period and possible composer..''What!? you played so fast you expect me to know what period is this?'' I was about to say''I think'', but luckily i stopped myself in time.. I wasn't supposed to say that..So I ended up saying' 20th century, Bartok''

After that he said goodbye and have a nice day.. Translation,'' I hope you enjoy your day later today.. I am sorry I have to be the one to break the news that u played and answered poorly today and now i need the time to decide whether i should fail or pass you'' SWt... :(

After that. my parents drove me to college and i immediately registered for my universities. It was truly a horrifying experience for me.. I swear i would practice even harder than ever..

Week of exhaustion

Its been a very exhausting week for me. Everyday is just a simple routine. Wake, get dressed, attend college, come home, bath, sleep, wake up again, have dinner, practice piano. It may sound boring, but its the way i am accustomed to. Simple and content life, free from over-arousals and stress. I have been practicing for hours at the piano to prepare for my practical exam, which is tomorrow, 14th of August. I feel very tired... Tired of simple errors i make, mistakes after mistakes. Its really difficult to get the songs as how I want them to be, no matter how hard i practice. I have to get them perfect if I wish to pass my exam. This is the only chance i would ever get. If i fail, there won't be a next time... Its like my future in music depends on the exam. I will do my best for tomorrow and just hope that everything goes well...

The charity drive which was held yesterday was a success.. My class managed to obtain a profit of 850 dollars by selling statement T-shirts. I wanted to do the best i could for my class. I was shouting out loud to promote my class shirts. It was a really hot day that day, luckily Lenna made me take a break when i was running around under the hot sun try to promote the shirts for at least 2 hours as I had a headache after that. After the event, when i heard Aaron complaining about the money, which was supposed to be handed in to our respective mentor, I decided to take the responsibility and went to the orange room to see him.. Thankfully, he said we did not need to hand in the money so soon. He let us out early as he knew we were all very tired on that day.. Overall, it was an enjoyable day, but a very exhausting one, i truly enjoyed myself on that day. :D

Three Roads of Destiny

Everything seems to fall out of place,
I had overlooked many things, I had miscalculated the course of future,
But no matter, I shall embrace the unknown,
The darkness that awaits the humans in every path chosen.

There, u will find the truth behind the lies, the lies behind the truth,
To find is to lose, and to lose is to find,
Sacrifices must be made when a path is chosen.

Let experience and lessons guide to to the everlasting light,the gate of destiny,
For me, I have yet to linger between the realms of darkness and light,
Twilight I call it, Neither here nor there,
I embrace the darkness, yet I yearn for light.

But know this my child, even in the brightest light, there is always darkness the lurks within it,
But also know that in the deepest depth of darkness,
know that you'll find a spark of light waiting to be called.

Accept that they are your teachers, masters, guides to the gates of destiny,
Let yourself not be consumed by eternal light, nor eternal darkness,
Even if you do succumb to these either of these masters,
Look for the other, he's always there waiting to be called,
Ready to face its opposite twin.

Dear child, know that you will need them both in order to face:
Gaia, Chaos, Nynx, Tartarus, and lastly, Chronos.

This is the path of twilight. The choice is yours my dear child,
Should u wish to chose the sun or a black hole,
Or as I had; the twilight road to dawn.

Interesting day

Yesterday I went to 1U with my mum for lunch as well as to shop for some stuff..We had lunch as Delicious...I ordered seafood pasta while my mum ordered beef bacon pasta.. The food tasted as good as the name of the restaurant.. lol.. My mum actually went there to shop for some clothes, but I ended up shopping for clothes instead..lol..

Today on the other hand was fine... I'm very pleased with my bio marks... It was much better than I had expected... Physics was kinda dull as i did not bring my previous notes to school...Thus, I was unable to complete my essay.. Maths was quite challenging today... Matrix is a pretty tough chapter... Had to think a lot before I could answer... Chemistry was pretty hilarious today..Although I didnt even finish my homework, but i pretended i did by covering the top of my paper with my previous sheets.. :D

I was bushed when I came back from college... But i couldn't take a nap as I had Music class later in the afternoon.. Surprisingly, I managed to complete all my three songs...At least she wasn't that mad at me.... Then later, I took a nap and woke up for dinner..

After that, I went to my piano and stated working on my third composition entitled 'Petals of Spring'... Its almost complete... Needs a bit of touch up, but it would be finished by next week.. :D If i was given a chance.. I would most probably have chosen music as my career..but, being a scientist is not too bad either. My first two compositions are entitled 'The loose thread' and 'Enrikay'. :D

Changes

Yesterday was one of the most exhausting day for me..Had a lot of work to do..And i became friends again with my old friend, Arthur... I wished i could have done something to help him. He seemed very down lately. Anyway, I just received my Mathematics results yesterday during the last period of the day... Its alright i guess, but I was hoping for a much higher result as i had made a lot of mistakes for that test...

Later Hui mien and I went to pyramid to watch Harry Potter.. I was grateful that Carmen was able to fetch us there, which was very nice of her... :D.We both bought tickets to watch the 5.40pm show...While waiting for the show to start, we both went to Asian Avenue and sat at the dessert corner.. There, we ordered Barley ginko and red bean soup, which tasted terrible and very watery.. After that, we just sat there and did our homework..

The movie was really disappointing as the plot of the story was terrible..At the end of the show, I seriously felt like killing the director.. The death of Dumbledore was not as tragic as the book had described.. Later, we both went to Dragon-I and ordered La Mian noodles and shared the custard yolk pau.. The food tasted great... Even the price was great..lol...

Overall, it was an enjoyable experience as we both had a great time... :D

Tiring day..

Today was an interesting but a tiring day for me... Especially bio time, where my lecturer allowed everyone in the class to talk for a while after copying down the notes on the whiteboard. Not only that, she showed us interesting slides on the areas where plants grow such as desserts, grasslands, underwater, etc,etc..

Lunch was also quite different today.. I had lunch with my friend Charles, who brought a friend of his, whose name was Albert. We had lunch at the vegetarian shop near the Uncle Seng restaurant.. There were a lot of variety of food, stir-fried potatoes, some green vegetables, curry veges, fried rice and many more. Overall, having lunch with them was really different and fun. Albert was very friendly to me. Not only that, his English was very good.. It made me feel really sorry for my poor vocabulary English..

Later I had Moral exams on religion, my weakest topic in Moral... It went all right, but I felt pretty bad, cause i didnt think i did as well as i had last time.. I somehow felt like I had let my teacher down.... :(

Physics lesson was pretty hilarious today. My teacher Mr. Yap made very good jokes, which made everyone in the class laugh. However, the topic on radiation is pretty complex as the chapter progresses.

Violin lessons today was seriously a drag.. Not only I didnt manage to get my violin...We had to relearn the basic theories of Grade 1... And I just found out from Justin that I would only be getting my violin after two weeks!! Imagine waiting that long... Seriously, I think the lessons are quite a waste of time without a violin.. Oh, well, I just have to be positive about it and hopefully everything will work out.. :D

Tomorrow is gonna be challenge for me.. So many things to take care of... hopefully everything would go according as planned.. It better had..

Just finished the lyrics. its called 'Visions of You'

I see your eyes, I see your soul in those miracle light,
You gave me strength,
When I see you, I would just follow wherever you go,
My heat and soul, You're everything to me,
I can't take it anymore, my feelings for you,
I'm such a fool, I can't decide

Visions of you,dancing with me
Round and round
Just you and me
Visions of you, do you see what I do
Dreaming of wishes, wishing of dreams,
Living, on visions of you, visions of you

Every night I keep dreaming of you,
You are my heart and my soul,
I feel like screaming, Calling your name,
Cause I just can't take it anymore

Everyday you are the key to the light in my heart,
So please don't go,
You're everything to me

Visions of you,dancing with me
Round and round
Just you and me
Visions of you, do you see what I do
Dreaming of wishes, wishing of dreams,
Living, on visions of you, visions of you,
My visions of you.

Today was pretty smooth.. Had bio exam today.. Forgive my lack of modesty, but the test was easier than I expected, i was surprised as i wasn't able to recalled most of the facts which i had studied the previous night... I mostly had to used some common sense to answer some of the questions... Overall, I hope i did well :)

Class seems different as the weeks progress, everyone seems to have changed a lot... The groupings and the attitudes.. But, i'm not surprised...lol,, i've sort of expected it months ago.. Wish I could do something to change it...but everything i do seems inevitable... There is one in particular from my class who's really getting on my nerves...I have been patient enough to forgive her... Hopefully she would be better in the future...

I'm gonna get my new violin this Thursday and watch Harry Potter with my pet sister Hui Mien this Friday... Too bad I couldn't join my friends for badminton tomorrow... I have a lot of work to finish on that day and also I have to study for my Moral test which is held this Thursday.. Hope everything goes well for me.. :)

Hectic week....

Sigh..its been a busy week. Had exams from Monday till Friday. Mon-Tue was Maths D.I. . My group member were great. Had a lot of teamwork.

Wednesday was hectic, had a physics exam, followed by a Maths exam. But surprisingly, it went pretty well... not to say the results would be good but, it was ok...

Thursday and Friday on the other hand was my ESL Text production where i chose 'The Man Who Laughs At Lions' by Bryce Walton as my topic.. It was alright, i managed to write 723 words with 2 points... I was worried for that moment that i would have written less than the minimum word count which was 600.. And while i was counting, i was more worried bout exceeding the word count, which was 800 words at first, but became 880, thanks to my teacher's courtesy.

Then later that Friday, i had dinner with my neighbours, which was great cause i had not met them for months.. And yesterday i spent my evening at their house... It was fun, but i wished i could hav spent more time with them..

Today is one of my worst days ever for the week. I hav to study for my Biology test which is on Tuesday, and the chapters which are coming from the theme Organisms are really long!!.. Guess i'll just do my best then... And pray a lot..LOL!!

Opening of my blog

Hey.. Bryan here!!...Finally decided to hav a blog.. Whatever it is.. Enjoy!! :D